Alignment & Evolution (Part 2)
If you experienced long enough to close up your heart and not let the voice of the universe, yourself, your own purpose to come through you don’t know who to trust anymore not even yourself.
This can be called out of alignment.
Your Bo(udd)ies are not talking to each other anymore. The seeds you are planting are not growing and you are basically not visible to the universe which waits for you to show up.
There are many contexts that research and give distinctions about what alignment is and how to find it. Mostly these contexts consider finding alignment within yourself by calming yourself down or having a certain technique to sharpen your muscles or using affirmations. That is not what I am talking about. They all have valuable information but for me most of them missing details that can leave you frustrated and not evolving or even making it worse.
It is because they might not include all b(u)oddies — meaning 5 b(u)oddies.
For example:
Grwoing up in a culture that values knowledge more than feeling and wisdom i vigorously trained. I did as much sports as a could after school because not only had i so much energy still wanting to be expressed after hours of sitting but also i wanted to feel myself so bad.
For years I spent my life training and most important feeling my body by focusing on macro movements until I got stuck as a dancer, stiff and rigid, not because I forgot mobility and stretching and so on but because I simply didn`t let my muscles communicate differently with each other and said no to the details. So what I did was to go silent on dancing big, put my focus inside and on micro-movements.
I spent at least 6 years of my life as a dancer to find alignment through my bones and the deeper muscle structure to align and refine my movement technique.
And it worked!
There it was my physical and my emotional body met.
I found a release and i kind of cathartic approach to my hidden emotions and feelings, meaning: I COULD EXPRESS THEM. From there I continued to feed my soul with touch and feel what i had surpressed before until I got to know catechetical approaches that made it possible to even change and shift identity in my life e.g. Possibility Management.
The world of emotions met the world of energetics.
It is the silence, stop and then shift of focus that can give you your alignment back by getting to know and expanding your patterns not only as an approach for the physical body but also for all your b(u)o(d)dies.
And when you expand, you experience growing pains.
Growing pains are really helpful because they tell you that you are building muscle. And you can build emotional muscle the same way you build physical muscle and the same way you build energetic muscle.
The interesting thing is that sometimes it is necessary to build the small muscles first before you can go on to build the bigger ones or the other way around depending on how you have had built your patterns before, your survival strategy in modern culture.
And if you lost track you have your body that is showing you trough symptoms where you don`t listen to yourself or other people by giving you feedback & coaching for your next steps.
This feedback can be mirroring you something that you say to yourself but don´t hear and then you hear it through other people e.g. a parent’s voice. It can be an appreciation that you don`t give yourself but then get it from others so you wake up to your own magnificence. Or it can be resistance to your proposals or resistance to not making proposals. And so much more.
Resistance is a very helpful tool to get you on track. For example if in dance kids want to feel their bodies you can not say to them: “Well just tense your belly and press your foot into the floor the same way you send your head to the ceiling.” For kids not on earth thinking in conceptual ways this is not a helpful image to find your posture.
The best way to learn where you lack sending energy into a body part and therefore a trajectory into the space is through resistance and working with or through that e.g. in dance with resistance bands.
Without resistance bands in dance education, you do not build the strength and visceral knowledge of your posture. It is a helpful tool to create stability in your physical body and have a reference for your limbs in space.
In the same way, resistance can show you your next steps in life. It doesn`t have to be:
“What you resist persists.” — BULLSHIT
It is to shortly phrased and lacks detail: “What you resist persits if you are not breathing, feeling and moving yourself.”
Also you are able to decide the trajectory you want to train next or evolve next in, meaning build the muscles (physical, emotional, energetical) you need to train e.g. to be able to fly or jump higher.
You have a reference point, an x on your life map, like a skin-to-skin experience.
And the best buddy you can have along with your 5 b(u)o(d)dies is your fear.
Maybe you remember the movie “Home Alone” with Kevin Mc Callister. He used his fear to create magnificient things to catch the bad guys. He didn`t know how it goes but he could hijack into greater resources through his fear of getting caught and became invention adn innovation in and of itself.
People become flabby and lack energy because their life energy is constantly being diverted along their primitive patterns.
Primative patterns are built by the thoughts you have, the beliefs you have and the behaviors you repeat, created through the experience of the culture you grew up in.
Experiences have been made that have led to certain beliefs and embodied behaviors that mirror fight, flight or fawn. This i call out of alignment because out of alignment makes you shift between ego states but never be fully present as an adult.
Through time you lose more and more energy, because you behave like a slave and sell your 5 bodies over and over again out of fear and believe that certain things do not work for you because you give yourself away to so called authorities outside of you!
That is the biggest distraction! And the same thime the only option to chose from while trauma makes you see only what fight, flight or fawn has to offer, a tunnel, a fantasy world that says it is reality, stuckness….
One option to get your authority back for the energetc b(u)o(d)dy is to become a trigger hunter. To become a trigger hunter you need to close the cafè of energies feeding from your system e.g. with spark 135
sparks.nextculture.org/
After that you evolve from a dog to a lion where you are not falling for every sentence in your head and jump on it but moreso becoming a lion that growls deeply putting the triggers at its place and taking the power off of them.
With that you are the one choosing the trajectory your time takes. You choose to be interesting to ECCO.
You choosing to evolve and what potential is wanting to blossom. You become the experimentor.
And be careful even the so called vast spiritual paradigms and new age thinking can foul you and make you think things to find out later it is just a parent ego state coated in spiritual belief systems.
Alignment of all bodies goes hand in hand with evolution. To inhertently feel that you are following your own authority and your own path it si about sensing in to them all.
And what i learned about being an experimentor is this:
In the 35 years now that I have been living on earth, I feel emotionally I am actually 14, 15 or sometimes 18 years old instead of 35. I am tapping with my toes into the energetical and emotional mass of an adult, meaning building a matrix to take radical responsibility. I navigate spaces now and do things that would have been my dreams and necessities for my evolution when I was a teenager and not when I was 35 years old.
That is ok but I am also grieving that.
I can feel and sense what would actually be on my plate right now from what my physical body and energy field are showing me and I don`t talk about babies.
No, I am talking about all creations and ready-to-be-used potentials lying in front of me like possible streams of evolution that I didn`t take or am still too afraid to take because I am caught up in stories not holding space for myself.
And at the same time, I feel glad to be able to see all this and to have a gap in my system to see how consciousness works.
There are different trajectories in life you can take. And every trajectory has a potential of you that can be drawn out. What potential and which trajectory you take is all choice. Neither of them is better or worse. They all are an expansion of your consciousness. To think I can optimize that too is a trap of your BOX, all the stories and identities you chose to survive and keep yourself where you always have been, meaning what you know.
The only thing keeping you to make a quantum leap from one stream to the next stream, from one trajectory to the next, and go up and up only into high drama/creation is how you use your fear.
Most people are stuck all their life because they became a victim of their reptilian brain and what it learned or experienced over the years. They can`t leave the fight, flight, freeze, or fawn because feeling what is actually going on or being able to hear the thoughts that they are thinking towards themselves is too dangerous and would destroy “Ma Flodders” cozy live.
I got stuck in these patterns also most of my life because of the experiences I made as a child and the decisions/beliefs I made because of these experiences.
And these days, I am grieving. I am grieving the trajectories I am seeing that also have been possible. I am grieving the potential of possible other things I can now navigate and could have been navigating, holding or held space for, and doing in my life if I would have been growing up in a culture that values and lives initiatory processes into adulthood. I am grieving my incapability of leaving my reptilian brain behind.
Never underestimate the impact and value of conscious fear, sadness, joy, or anger pumping through your veins. This is your medicine and you have it available in your system all the time.
I am saying this not to accuse but to speak about my current x on the map of evolution, on the map of life. I feel glad to be able to experience and feel that out of the experience in all my bodies, emotionally, energetically, physically, archetypal, and not only in my intellectual body.
And I admire those 20-year-olds now that seem to have done some of these initiations earlier so they go for what they want not with less effort or less suffering through pain but because the mass, the archetypal forces having more space in their system to come through or they figured out and had the spaceholding to remove some blocks already.
When people talk about the biological clock or there is a certain time for something and when I hear people complaining about how women get babies way later in life or very early etc. it is because of either the lack of initiatory processes or the force of nature for a quicker evolution because of the circumstances.
And what is actually meant by these sayings is that there is a certain timing for evolution to happen and that certain liquid states are quicker and easier to handle at a certain age and later in life, it might be possible too but has a lot to do also with the capacity of your nervous system and the level of rigidity of your box how much you might be able to handle.
And I feel sad because most of our adult potential gets lost in the time frame of our teenagehood because we don´t have initiatory processes. Instead, we live in a culture where we deny, disown and suppress our potential to serve principles, codexes or laws, companies, and values that we didn`t consciously choose. Your teenagehood is the time to consciously choose in what context and with what values you want to create your life.
Most teenagers are already so out of alignment that they can not fulfill or withhold the years to come and collapse, freeze, fawn, fight, or flight under societal pressure.
And one thing to go this path is to overcome the reptilian brain to make a shift in your system.
Whatever it is in detail, a good start is to seek alignment in 5 Bodies and to gain mass in the adult ego state: Read about that in part 3.
Love Christine
